Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Five pages a day and decorating? That's right. I'm bringing it.

I love everything about summer.  The heat and humidity, the pool, water ice, and sticky and happy children.  My girls and I have been on a home improvement kick in between our long stretches of lazy.  We created couch covers from red jersey sheets.  It was so easy that I wonder why I have been afraid to somehow ruin couches that two kids and a huge dog ruined a long time ago.  I simply stretched and tucked and because the jersey sheets are a lot softer and stretch more than cotton sheets, it was easier to create a nice, uniform look.  I also made pillows.  And, no, I cannot sew.  We used iron on fabric tape and now we have this living room that is much more inviting.  I also scored four dining room chairs in great condition from Craig's List for fifty bucks. 

This is all a part of my doing things that flat out terrify me.  And decorating has always been one of those things.  I told myself that I wasn't crafty and not all that artistic, and I lived in a house that wasn't all that comfortable or attractive because I was terrified of changing it.  It seems so silly to me now - all the things that I have been afraid to tackle for fear of making a mistake.  Now, whenever I get paralyzed with fear, I ask myself what is the worst that could happen?  Will I save my old couches by not doing anything to them?  Is it better to live with what I don't like because I feel safe, or is it better to change?  What I am learning is nothing is ever as horrible as we imagine it. In fact, I love my new couches (any tricks for keeping the dog off of them would be greatly appreciated!) and the world did not stop spinning.
 
I feel that way about my writing as well. What's the worst that could happen by putting it out there?   We are all so much more, so much bigger then we give ourselves credit for.  But we make ourselves small because we are so worried the worst that could happen is constantly nipping at our heels.  Here's a suggestion:  let the worst bite you.  You will probably find you're dealing with a stuffed animal and not a ferocious hound out for blood.
 
All this to say, failure is okay.  Failure is inevitable; failure is how all great things are born.  But I am not going to focus on failure.  I am going to try without expectations and, hopefully, with a little joy in my heart.

So, here are ten things I will try this summer in random order:

1. paint my stairs
2. finish Annie Rose's story (this means writing 5 pages a day)
3. make my bed (and I mean every single day)
4. make my husband laugh more
5. laugh at my girls when they are driving me straight crazy
6. start a vegetable garden (any tips?)
7. be kinder to strangers
8. be kinder to myself
9. take the dog on more long walks
10. eat all the dark chocolate I want without guilt.

What about you?  What are you willing to try?  Shoot me a message and let me know.


And here is an excerpt from Annie Rose's story.  Enjoy!




Annie Rose was pleasantly full, the first time her stomach didn’t feel like a gaping hole since she was released from the hospital, as she walked John Wayne out.  Her old, wooden porch creaked beneath his weight and for one horrifying moment she imagined it giving way and John Wayne disappearing down some kind of rabbit hole.  Then she had to shake her head at her own foolishness.  John Wayne was much too solid to ever disappear.  She invited him in to be polite, and maybe she was a little nervous about going inside her house alone after being gone for a couple of hours, and now she was glad that she had.  This felt lovely and normal, maybe as close to normal, even with her panic attacks, as she was ever going to get with a man. 

“Are you going to be alright, Annie Rose?”  He cupped her shoulders with large, callused hands and turned her so that she faced him dead on.  He was a giant, taller even than Poppop.  She barely reached his chest, and she had to tilt her head way back to see his face.  His blonde hair, carelessly long like he didn’t have the time for a proper hair cut, fell against his forehead, the texture some where between wavy and curly and streaked from the sun.  He had the kind of hair any woman would scalp him for, and she bet all he did was wash it.  John Wayne, as far as she knew, was not the kind of man to use beauty products.

“I’m not sure yet, John Wayne.”  A lie would have been easier, the same kind of fake nonsense that she gave to most everyone else because she knew they didn’t really want to hear the truth.  Annie Rose could barely stomach it herself.  But John Wayne’s chocolate eyes, focused and steady as he looked at her like she was the last honest to God woman in the world, made it impossible for anything but the truth to sneak past her lips.

His hand skimmed her rioting curls, lifting and rearranging until he cradled her nape.  His palm, cool and dry, felt unspeakably good against her hot, flushed skin.  His other hand went to her lower back and rested lightly as he pulled her, nice and easy, into his arms.  “This okay, Annie Rose?”

How long had it been since she’d been held by a man? He was scary solid, and she felt infinitely vulnerable in his arms.  She should have been terrified; everything in her past had conditioned her to be afraid of a man holding her like this, especially one who could just as soon break her neck as kiss her.  But she wished she was a tick, nasty as they were, so that she could burrow into him and steal all that warmth.  “Yes.  Thank you.”

“My pleasure, Annie Rose.”

His cinnamon smell seeped into her hair and skin, so good, and she relaxed, gave him all her weight; her body instinctively knew he would support her.  And because she knew she was a hot mess and might not ever get the chance to be this close to the man she had fantasized about for years, she wrapped her arms tentatively around his waist and cuddled her belly against his hips.  And that’s when she felt his erection, huge like the rest of him, and so startlingly she gasped like a maiden in distress and tried to pull back.

John Wayne laughed low and refused to let her go.  “Don’t panic on me, now.  Look at me, Annie Rose.”

He was using his cop voice again.  Deep and patient and dripping with command.  She actually gulped before she looked up at him.  A command from a man should not make her want to jump his bones and do whatever he wanted.  Surely, she knew better.  But maybe she was a slow learner or an out right idiot.  “Yes?”

“Do you think that I’d ever hurt you?”

Annie Rose shook her head.  Hurting a woman or anything smaller and weaker just wasn’t in John Wayne, but between them his cock just kept growing.  Annie Rose felt like she was one second away from a full out faint.  And it wasn’t from terror either.  He’d be lucky if she let him make it to his car.

“I am not going to play games with you, Annie Rose.  I’m not good at them.  I want you.  And I mean to have you.  Consider this fair warning.”

When was the last time a man really wanted her?  They looked and flirted or insulted, depending on the man.  She was vain enough to know she got a lot of second and third glances.  But men looked at her the way they did a sports car; they just wanted a fast ride.  She was, apparently, nothing but one big old false advertisement.  Her motor was slow to start and often stalled altogether.  But this man wanted her.  This man saw her.  And it made her want to cry because she had no idea what to do with him.





Friday, June 7, 2013


I recently went to my 20th high school reunion.  I have been out of high school for two decades, have two lovely preteen daughters, a great husband, and numerous pets, but at the reunion I felt like I was fifteen years old again.   I felt the same way when I had my first child.  I remember looking down at her in my arms at the hospital and thinking, "You should not be going home with me.  Are these doctors and nurses crazy?  Can't they see this is way over my head?"  She and I muddled through; she must have sensed the precarious predicament she was in and took pity on me.  She was slept through the night early on and had the sweetest disposition.

Do you remember what fifteen feels like?  The uncertainty and the excitement and the terror?  You have this entire life that is waiting for you to just do something with it.  At fifteen, I also wrote romance novels by hand and read them during recess and lunch far, far away from teachers.  In fact, all of my classmates remembered me as the girl who wrote "those stories."   I can't remember much about these stories, but I am sure there were depressed heroines, emotionally unavailable heroes (is there anything more attractive to a teenage girl than a boy out of her league?) and a lot of inaccurate sexual details and exploits.  But what I do remember is the sheer pleasure that writing these stories brought me.  And so I started writing them again, hopefully with better heroes and heroines, more interesting plots, and really fun and accurate sexual exploits.  

This is a blog about writing, but more than that, it is a blog about doing whatever it is that you truly love. We should all do whatever it is that makes us feel fifteen again - the excitement and the terror and the awe in knowing that life is just waiting for you to do something with it.

Here are the blurb and the first three chapters from my contemporary romance, Princess Charming
I hope you enjoy it!  The entire novel can be downloaded for free at
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/322938





Princess Charming

 

 

Princess drives into her hometown, Kingstree, North Carolina, on fumes and Xanax.  She is running from a past defined by tragedy and, hopefully, straight into the arms of Gabe Connor.  He is the one man she can’t have and can’t forget. She doesn’t count on the serial killer that makes her sleepy hometown his hunting grounds.  As dead bodies pop up like weeds in quiet Kingstree, and Gabe fends her off at every turn, she decides to buckle down, get off the Xanax, and write her own happy ending.   She just needs to catch a killer and hogtie prince charming first.

                                                                                                                





 

 

He never forgot the smell of roses as she lay beneath him, her cries, or the way his fist sunk into her flesh again and again and again.

She laughed at him like she was too good for him.  The first time she told him no he came with flowers.  He stood on her porch, sweating from the humidity despite the shade while her little girl played in the front yard.  She wouldn’t even take the flowers.  Just told him that she didn’t want him, gave him some lemonade, and sent him on his way. 

He came back with wine and candy and more flowers. And he kept coming back, despite Aher objections.  It got to the point where she’d start frowning when she saw his car like he was some kind of stray hound nipping at her heels.

He started to hate her. The hate added fuel to the lust. She must have seen it.  He smelled fear on her whenever he stopped by.  She didn’t greet him on the porch.  When she saw him coming, she grabbed her little girl, ran into the house, and locked the door.

He’d had wife, a pale little blond thing with rabbit teeth.  She left him when she got tired of his fist plowing into her face.  She went back to her people in Georgia, and he was more than happy to see her go.

But this woman. He went to sleep with her vision stored tight behind his closed eyelids and woke up hungry for her in the morning.  

He planned for weeks, relishing each detail, the planning a kind foreplay.  What he would do to her, how he would hurt her, show her.  She’d never say no to him again. 

No sir, not ever again.

When he got to the house, she met him with tears and fury. She was the most beautiful woman in North Carolina – probably in the South and she stood there with panic blooming on her face, gasping for breath, her only defense a butcher knife.

It was easy getting the knife away from her, easy to drag her down to the floor, tear her clothes from her body.

It wasn’t until he was done that they remembered the girl. He looked for her for hours, until he heard a car coming up the road.

But he never, ever forgot.  And he watched.  And he waited.

 

 

Prin drove into Kingstree on fumes and Xanax.  She was so desperate to get the hell out of Charlotte she forgot to fill up the gas tank, and the Xanax kept those annoying little panic attacks away. 

She pulled into the local BP gas station.  She could take care of the gas.  Taking care of her big bag of crazy was another matter entirely.  Mr. Hubert came out to the pump.  She hadn’t seen him since the last time she was home and he streaked bare assed down Lee Street after last call at the Catfish.  It wasn’t a sight she was soon to forget.

He leaned into the car.  His breath smelled like mint and his full white beard made him look like a sun baked Santa in the summer sun.  “Prin. How are you, sweetheart?”

So it began.  The looks and whispers and curiosity and pity.  She knew what she was coming home to, but staying in Charlotte was no longer an option.  “Fine, Mr.  Hubert.  Better than I ought to be, and luckier than I deserve.” 

Mr. Hubert tugged at his beard, trying to think of something to say.  He must have fallen short because all he offered was, “Prin, this too shall pass.”

She nodded her head. “I hope so.  Pray I’m still standing when it does.”  It was hard to talk to him and not see him naked. Prin shuddered at the image.

“I certainly will.  You come on by and let Lizzy know if you need anything.”

“Thank you, Mr. Hubert.  How is Ms. Lizzy?”“She’s fine.  Being run ragged by all the grandkids.”

Mr. Hubert and Ms. Lizzy had been married thirty odd years, had three children, and enough grandchildren to start their very own football team.  “Tell her I’ll stop by after I settle.”

“That I will, Prin.  That I will.  I saw your Poppop.  He sure is relieved to have you home.”

“Yes, he is, but we all know he never wanted me to leave in the first place.”

Mr. Hubert was too polite to point out that Poppop had not only been right but prophetic.  Poppop told her nothing good was going to come out of her hightailing it to Charlotte.

Prin drove through Kingstree with the windows down so she could take deep breaths of the sweet summer. It took her less than fifteen minutes because that’s how small Kingstree was. It had Lee Street, the main artery of the town, surrounded by streets named after lesser confederate generals (Johnston, Polk, Ramsuer) and, after the Civil Rights Movement, leaders of slave rebellions (Prosser, Vesey, Turner).  Kingstree took its history seriously.

Lee Street housed City Hall, the police station and jailhouse, and an entire assortment of small businesses: The one lawyer and doctor in town, Catfish, Ms. Althea’s diner where Annie Rose was the chef and where Mr. Hubert never missed last call, a craft shop, and a bookstore.  Big Macs and Route 66 jeans could only be had on the expressway coming into town.

When she pulled up to Poppop’s, Annie Rose was waiting on her, her curly red hair, which was her pride and joy, blowing like a flag of welcome.  She fisted her hands on her curvy hips and smiled wide.  Her milk white skin was already red from the sun, but Annie Rose was too vain to wear a hat.  She just slathered on sunscreen and hoped for the best.

It was Annie Rose who ran up to Charlotte when the shit hit the fan, stayed with her as she made the not so hard decision to leave, and helped her pack up her small apartment.  It took less than two weeks to box up four years of her life. 

Annie Rose dragged Prin out the car and straight into her arms.  They had been best friends since first grade when Annie Rose was teased because of her red hair and Prin because her Mama was the other woman.  The other woman was still something to gossip and gasp over in small southern towns. Prin couldn’t imagine what it might have been like for Mama almost thirty years ago.

“Princess, you are a sight for glad eyes. How was the drive, sweetie?  You should have let me come up and drive back with you.  I don’t see why you had to go and play Joan of Arc.”

Only Annie Rose and Poppop ever called her by her ridiculous first name.  What was her mama thinking?  Prin tied her hair in a loose knot at the nape of her neck. “Yes, well, since you were about to get fired because you ran to my rescue the first time, I didn’t think it’d be fair to call you again.  You need that job.”

Annie Rose laughed, “No, I don’t either.  I’m about to find some naïve man to take care of me in the manner I deserve.”

“Good luck to you.  Poppop home?”

Annie Rose started unloading the car.  “You think Mr. Jim going to miss a day of work?  Not hardly.  I’m all you got right now, so let’s get to work.”  

 It didn’t take them long to get her every single possession in life unpacked and stored neatly in her old room.  Poppop didn’t believe in change the way revival preachers believed in old school religion and an eye for an eye.  Her room was the same as when she left it.  White washed walls, pastels curtains and bedspreads, and old furniture that she and Annie Rose spent an entire week painting white their sophomore year in high school.  They were going for shabby chic at the time but ended up with just plain shabby. 

After they were done, they sprawled on the bed.  Annie Rose at the foot and Prin at the bottom just like they used to when the only real worry they had was who was going to ask them to the latest school dance.  The ceiling fan hummed as Annie Rose studied Prin’s face feature by feature.

Finally, she came to a verdict.  “Well, you look better.  Got some of your weight back.  Unlike me, you cannot afford to loose a few pounds.  And you don’t look quite so shell shocked.  You scared the hell out of me in Charlotte.  I don’t ever want to go through that again.”

Leave it to Annie Rose to write her lovely self into the tragedy.  She couldn’t help it like she couldn’t help her red hair, milk skin, and honey accent. But without her, Prin would still be curled up on the bathroom floor in Charlotte.

“I wished I felt as good as I apparently look.  I feel like I’m walking around with my insides on the outsides.”

“Insides on the outsides?”

“You know, raw and oozing and bleeding.  I hurt just about everywhere.”

“Thanks for the visual, sweetie. Okay.  None of that now.  You couldn’t do anything to prevent what happened to that child, and you can’t do a thing to change it.”

“Really?  It doesn’t feel like I did enough, Annie Rose.”

Annie Rose sat straight up, and her eyes were sharp with sympathy.  “Maybe, but maybe it wouldn’t have changed a thing.  You can’t play that game because there’s no winning to it.”

“You’re right, Annie Rose.  I know you’re right.  I’m counting on you not to let me wallow in self pity or run straight into crazy.And just so we’re clear, I’m more concerned with running into crazy.”

Annie Rose lay back down on the bed.  “Don’t you worry any more about it, and if I can’t keep you from crazy, I’ll sign on for the ride.”

It was the sweetest relief that after everything Prin could still laugh.

 

 

The North Carolina sun sat heavy on Prin’s back as she made her way down the long stretch of dirt road leading to the creek and away from the house she shared with Poppop since the night Mama died.  She tried not to think about that night because the only thing she remembered was Poppop pulling her away from Mama.

And, really, she was already on Xanax and had nightmares and cold sweats that had nothing at all to do with Mama.Still, her therapist, Belinda with the soothing voice and sweet eyes, said one day it might come back to her when she least expected it. 

Belinda was the only thing she was going to miss about Charlotte.  Finding a good therapist was like finding a good husband.  It took a lot of time and effort and compromise and even then there were no guarantees.  Sometimes it worked and sometimes it ended in a messy breakup.

The green woods of Kingstree swallowed her.  She stopped, took of her shoes, and carried them in one hand so she could feel the dirt between her toes. She just wanted to walk around, get her bearings, and reacquaint herself with the town that was in her blood and flesh.

She loved the pace and the way there was never any rush to go anywhere, to do anything.  She loved the people, and knew everyone in town by name.  But it was enough to choke her during high school, and especially right after college when all she wanted was to be grown and not have everybody know every little thing about her life.

It was like jail, being surrounded on all sides by lovable prison guards who had her best interests at heart, or at least said they did.

She knew better.  Some folks were just gossips and loved to tell a tale or spread a rumor.  That was what ruined things between her and Gabe.  Small town gossip and speculation just about broke her heart.  Granted, there was never actually anything between them, but she was working on it, and almost brought him round to her way of thinking.

She veered deeper into the woods, and the shelter of the trees.  She walked until she hit the creek.  She sat her shoes on the bank, pulled her dress higher up her thighs and stepped in, careful of the sharp rocks lining the bottom. 

“I’ve been waiting on you to get on home, Prin.” 

She lost her footing and fell in the creek.

 

 

Gabe Conner smiled down at her as she stared up at him wide eyed, legs sprawled, showing a hint of hot pink panties.Her legs were long, darker than the skin of her thighs from sun exposure.  Her hair had loosened from her ponytail, was wild about her face, fell down her back in soft, black curls.  She continued to gape at him, the soft pink of her tongue showing between her teeth.

He felt his cock harden at the sight of her pink tongue, her red mouth, and frantically started counting in his head.  There was still ten years age difference between them no matter how he added it up.

And this wasn’t some little glad to be home visit for her.  She was coming home for good wounded and tired.  He might as well set up his umbrella in Hell now for thinking about her naked underneath him. 

He bent down to lift her from the creek.  She was slender, didn’t quite reach his heart.  He was big, had played football in high school and college because of his weight and size and because Football was the second most popular religion in the South after good old fashioned Baptists. His transformation into sheer bulk and muscle was completed by the Marines and two tours of duty in Iraq.  He was a hard son of a bitch and he knew it.  Way too hard for a woman as sweet as Prin.

He lifted her easily against him.  It about killed him to think of her alone and hurting up in Charlotte far from her people and anyone in the world that really cared about her.  He almost drove up to get her till Annie Rose talked him out of it by reminding him she wasn’t sure if Prin would let him past the front door.

Her body was sun baked, fragrant with amber, infinitely fragile in his arms.  She tried to pull away, but he held tight until she settled.  And they stayed that way while Black Bellied Plovers flew overhead and the humidity sank into their skin.  Since he could remember all of his summers included her tagging along beside him when he was a boy, and then later, as he ran headlong into manhood and wanted nothing to do with little girls, sprinting to keep up with him.

She was good and grown but he couldn’t forget those long summer days he spent helping her dig up garden snakes, build mud pies, and teaching her how to swim at the lake.  When he closed his eyes, she was still that skinny little girl with big eyes and curly hair hiding her face.

Most of the time, he was still able to think of her that way.  He only had problems when she was flush against him, warm, curvy, and so sweet she made his back teeth ache. He put her away from him before she could feel his erection rubbing against her soft belly. 

She smiled at him, and pulled the damp dress self consciously from her legs.  “Hey, Gabe.  How you been?”

Her voice was deep,  slow, peppered with the Southern drawl that was native to North Carolina, and made him want to suck the words from that red mouth, suck on that pretty pink tongue.  But she was sidestepping everything that went down in Charlotte, pretending that all was sunshine and lemonade in her world.  

“Good.  Missed you, though.”  He reached out to touch the silk of her hair, thick and heavy.  He ran his hands through it, and she was easy with his touch, leaned into his hand.  “You’re okay, Prin?” 

Her eyes narrowed and she barred her teeth.  “I am fine.  Just Fine.  I don’t want anyone else to ask me that question as long as I live, Gabe.”

She was never easy so to speak, but that was part of her charm.  “Yup, sounds like you’re just dandy.”

She had the grace to look away, and then she laughed.  She had always been able to laugh at herself, and that was part of her charm as well.  “Sorry.  Mr. Hubert down at the gas station already put his two cents in and then Annie Rose had to do her follow up.  I’m feeling a bit raw right now.  So, maybe I’m not quite fine, but I’m not falling to pieces either.  Don’t you worry none, Gabe, and don’t go back spreading tales to your mama and daddy.  That’s all I need.”

“I have no tales to spread.  You know if you need me, all you have to do is holler.”

She glanced up at him from beneath her lashes and reminded him of all the times he had to sidestep her clumsy attempts at seduction before she moved to Charlotte.  “Yeah, but will you come, Gabe?”

“I’ll come running.  You know that, Prin.”  And he had never meant anything more.  He still remembered the first time he noticed her, really looked at her.  Her grandfather had come to speak to Daddy after he found the night her mother died.  Her grandfather, Mr. Jim, and his Daddy were good friends, served early on in Vietnam together, and came home in one piece before the war ended.  Mr. Jim had come into the house, holding Prin like he was afraid to put her down.  Prin hadn’t looked around, had stared straight in front of her.

Daddy made him take Prin outside. She was just a little thing and he was already in middle school.  She came to him without a fight, rested easy in his arms, and he had carried her out back, sat on the porch with her, and rocked her as they both listened to Mr. Jim crying.She didn’t cry, just stared up at him, her gaze locked to his face, her brown eyes huge.

He started picking her up to go to school, taking her home because for a good year Mr. Jim was inconsolable, unable to do any of those things, unable to even get out of bed some days.  Mama braided Prin’s hair at night, fed her dinner, helped her with her baths, and then he or Daddy drove her home.  His younger brothers, Collin and Sean, played with her to keep her occupied, tried to make her smile. She talked a lot, was one of those children who was constantly into something.  She liked her books, she liked to run amuck, and most of all she liked him.

And he adored her, just like Mama and Daddy and his brothers.  She was beautiful, like her mama had been beautiful.  She had her Mama’s features, her bone structure, and the same slightness of build.  Her mama, according to Daddy, had men from three counties hounding after her.  He took a step back, sat, and pulled her down next to him.

“Nice way to cool off.” he said, gesturing to the wet skirt that clung to her legs.

“Hot as it is it’ll dry soon.”  Her hands pulled at the grass at her sides and the smell of earth, dark and sweet, saturated the air.  Her fingers were long and slender, her nails painted a soft pink.  He could not resist, tangled his fingers with hers, and pulled at the grass until the dirt stained their hands.

“Does it feel good to be home?”

She crossed her legs and her wet skirt pooled in her lap.  “You know, I spent most of my life plotting on how to get out of here.  I thought I had enough of small towns to last me at least two lifetimes.  But here I am.  Back again.”

“It doesn’t have to be forever, Prin.  Not if you don’t want it to. Just because you’re back doesn’t mean that your life’s cut off at the knees or you have no options.”

“That’s exactly how I feel.  Like my life, such as it was, got cut off at the knees.”

He squeezed her hands. “That’s the South in you.  No need to be a drama queen.”

She pulled her hands away from his and punched him in the stomach, leaving a handprint on his white t-shirt.  He grunted obligingly as she laughed at him.  “Shame on you, not letting me wallow in my misery.  You, Gabe Conner, are no gentleman.”

“Never said I was.  Besides, you got enough people going to let you wallow.  I bet Annie Rose is treating you like spun silk and your Poppop like porcelain.  That’s not what you need.”

She was no longer laughing.  She rolled her eyes. “Since when, Gabe, did you get to be the authority on me? Tell me so I can be sure to listen the next time you give me unsolicited advice.”

He wanted to tell her he would always be the authority on her.  He wanted to tell her he went to sleep dreaming about her and woke up with her still on his mind.He wanted to tell her she was the yardstick he used for other women who, no matter how hard they tried, never measured up because they weren’t her.  He wanted to tell her he studied her the way preachers studied the Bible and gamblers studied a deck of cards.

He said instead, “Don’t pretend that I don’t know you inside out, Prin.  That’s what happens when you’ve been friends with someone most of all your life.  And right now, you don’t need coddling or pity, you need someone to take a firm hand.”

She sputtered, “You mean you, Gabe?  You’re going to take a firm hand to me?  Last time I checked, I was not a five year old girl and I didn’t need anyone to handle me, thank you very much.”

Oh, he’d like to.  He wanted nothing more.  “I know you’re not a little girl.  You can rest assured on that point.  And I didn’t say I was going to take you in hand.  Not necessarily, but I will if need be.”

She tried to stand up but got tangled in her wet skirt and trapped by his hand on her wrist.  “I am more than done with this conversation and you for the day.  Maybe for the rest of the week.  Let me go, Gabe.”

She was annoyed, no doubt about it, but she no longer looked breakable or devastated.  She no longer looked so fragile he was scared to touch her.

He knew better.  He surely knew better, but he tugged sharply on her wrist until she was flush against him. “Not yet, Prin.  Not just yet.”

 

 

 

 

 


 

 

Gabe’s neck was sweat glazed and soft, and the shadow of his dark beard scraped against her cheek.  She inhaled his shampoo, aftershave, and butterscotch breath. Beneath it all his own individual scent made her want to lock her arms around him and hold tight.

Why couldn’t it be like this with other men? 

She tried.  Lord knows she tried.  First thing she did when she got to college was rid herself of her virginity with the nicest boy she could find, Bill.He was sweet and nonthreatening, and always wanted to share everything.  He loved listing his feelings and questioning her feelings and wondering where the relationship was going or if she was really committed.  He tried to talk her into an orgasm.

After the fiasco with Bill, she tried with her last boyfriend.  Just as sweet.  Just as nice.  The kind of man that asked politely before he touched her.Neither of them ever stoked heat beneath her skin until she was overripe and tender.  No one but Gabe.  And he wouldn’t let her have him.

“Gabe, I’ve just about had enough of you and your teasing.  Last time we ended up here you told me, quite emphatically if I remember, that no means no.”  Prin still smarted from the humiliation.  Just her luck to be stuck on a man that didn’t want a woman to have her wicked way with him. 

His hands circled her waist, and his rough palms snuck under her shirt and almost spanned the entire length of her back.  He was so big and hot and male he made her feel every inch of her body, made her plaint.  She wanted nothing more than to whisper, do it.  Anything you want.  Everything you want.  Just, please, do it.

But she knew how this would end, how it always ended.  She couldn’t take more rejection from him, not right now when her world was crumbling bit by bit around her.  “Gabe, I mean it…”

His mouth shut her up but good.  His lips just skimmed hers, soft skin against soft skin, until she wanted to swallow his butterscotch breath, swallow each and every part of him.  She gave up, not that she fought all that hard.  She never fought all that hard with him and that was probably her greatest downfall.  He was her Achilles heel.  She tangled her fingers in his thick, dark hair.  The strands were like frayed silk against her fingertips.  The only way she was letting go was if God himself dragged her off of him. 

Gabe’s hands traveled up and down her back, the lightest of touches, as his kiss forced her head back.  The taste and thrust of his tongue, the smoothness of his teeth and cheeks all left her in a kind of dazed frenzy. She didn’t have to think about responding, didn’t have to anticipate his every move and then counter.  All she had to do was feel.  He made her a creature entirely of sensation, and she drowned in it even as she realized, if she had any sense at all, she’d be sprinting for the nearest shore. 

His mouth traveled along her cheek, down her jaw, then skated her hairline.  He was patient, curious, and innovative.  It was like he had no interest at all in ordinary sex, like it was a waste of his time and what he wanted from her required her body and soul and zealous participation.She fantasized about him sucking toes, licking necks and the backs of thighs.  Even now his tongue ran lightly along her scalp between her side part.  It was like Gabe was an entirely different species from the other men that she’d been with.

He laid her on the ground, and the smell of damp soil and green grass swamped her as his body blocked out the sun.  His hands framed her face and he held perfectly still until she opened her eyes.  His cheeks were flushed, his lips swollen from their kisses, his dark blue eyes heavy lidded and hot.

It didn’t make any sense for her to love him like she did, especially when he wanted no parts of her.  Knowing Gabe, this was probably a bid to make her feel better.  He’d been riding to her rescue, much to her annoyance, her entire life.  It was doubtful that he’d stop now. And didn’t it just make her pitiful that she’d take whatever he gave her. 

The weight of his gaze made her nervous.  She wanted to look away but couldn’t.  She worried her lower lip with her teeth until his fingers rubbed away the sting.

“What happened to the guy you were seeing, Prin?  Kevin?  Kyle?”

He would ask about that.  He didn’t want any parts of her love life, but he liked periodic updates.  “Keith.  Turns out he wasn’t the staying kind.  First little hint of trouble and he scurried off.”  She couldn’t blame him.  If there was any way that she could have run, she would have taken it.  Problem was she couldn’t run from herself. 

He eyes got even hotter and he growled, “Idiot.  He was an idiot.”

He had no right to be possessive, no right to make her think that whatever was between them was going to end differently or ever actually be real and not something she fantasized while downing an entire bottle of Cabernet by herself.  “You know what, Gabe?  I only seem to be attracted to idiots. Guess I’m just lucky that way.”

He actually had the nerve to laugh.  “Now Prin, you know that’s not nice.”

He settled his body on top of hers, his weight and strength anchoring her solidly to the ground. She felt each and every inch of her body as his weight forced her hips deeper in the dirt.  He nuzzled her neck, her chin, and her cheeks while the sun shone down on them like revelation and the insects buzzed at her ears.

She couldn’t help circling her hips or wrapping her legs about his waist. One of his big hands caged her wrists above her head until she was stretched taunt beneath him, and her body arched hard in a sharp bite of lust. His mouth parted, and she caught a glimpse of his tongue right before she closed her eyes.  It was beyond her to keep them open. He closed his mouth over hers, licked at her lips until they parted for him.  She trembled, trying to get closer, and he pushed her down into the grass, pushed her down into the ground.  She opened for him and his tongue went deep.  He sucked on her tongue as she whimpered.  He gave her his full weight and spread her legs.

She wanted nothing more than to pull up her skirt and let him have her in the dirt.

He pulled away from her and she heaved against him in protest. “Easy, baby, easy.  I’ve got you.”

His mouth was at her neck, kissing sweetly, and then biting hard.  She felt marked, owned, and she arched up into the caress.  He bit her again, and ground himself against her.

“You want this?”  His mouth was at her ear, the erotic heat of his breath beating against her.

She had fantasized about him for years.  “You are such a tease, Gabe.”

“You want this?”

She had no defenses against him.  “Yes.”

He pulled on her hair. “Look at me.”

She opened her eyes, watched as he unbuttoned her shirt. His blue eyes were bright in his tan face. He unhooked the front clasp of her bra and she wanted to scream as her breasts were bared for him.

She couldn’t hold the words back, and really, what did it matter?  She’d said them before for all the good they’d done her.  “I want you, Gabe.”

“How long?”  He asked, his free hand holding her by the jaw, keeping her gaze on his face.

“Always Gabe.  Always.”

He bent his head to her breasts. “Watch me.  I want you to watch me.”

He let go of her wrist to hold her breasts together and kiss both nipples, pull both nipples into his mouth.  He pulled at them so deep that she felt it throughout her body.  He moaned at her breasts, and she felt her stomach tighten.

“Lord above, you are beautiful.” His hand moved down across her stomach, reached for the hem of her damp skirt and pulled it up until it rested high around her waist.  He cupped her, and she stilled.  He slid her panties aside, encountered soft, vulnerable skin.

He shuddered, pulled himself away from her, until he was on his knees, between her thighs, ripping her panties off.  Neither Keith nor Bill had ever ripped her panties from her body.

She felt him staring down at her, felt his hands running over her.

“Look at you.  So pretty and sweet.”  His tone made her move against his hand, begging him to touch her.

His fingers parted her, his thumb tracing her. She looked up at him, his face was flushed, his nostrils flared. “Tell me to kiss your pussy.”

She stilled, shocked, slightly embarrassed.  She had thought that word, but had never said it aloud.

His thumb worked her slowly in circles, barely touching, teasing. “Tell me to kiss you.”

He was moving between her legs, his breath feathering against her thighs, his mouth nibbling at the tender skin there. “Tell me to kiss your pussy, Prin.  Please, tell me baby.”

She was almost incoherent. “Please, Gabe.  Please kiss my pussy.”

He licked her slowly while she watched clouds lazily drift in the blue sky overhead. “Tell me again, sweetheart.  Tell me like you mean it.”

She lifted to him. “Please, kiss my pussy, Gabe.”  She had never meant anything more in her life.

She felt a tightness running down her legs, rumbling through her stomach, a pleasure so sharp and sweet she had no words for it as his tongue lapped at her before his mouth settled sweetly where she needed him most.  He suckled, gentled, kissed her like he would kiss her mouth, tender.

He rose over her, tore off his shirt, unfastened his jeans, and his cock sprang free.  Her body ached like a sore tooth.  She reached out and touched him, her hands circling as he drew in his breath sharply.  His hands closed around hers, moving her fist up and down.

He settled between her legs, and she almost fainted with joy because it looked like finally this was about to happen.She pulled his head down to her and whispered in his ear, “I love you, Gabe Connor.  I’ll always love you.”

 

 

Her words brought him to his senses.  He pulled away from her, looked at the picture she made sprawled out beneath him, her hair wild about her head.But it was her eyes, liquid and huge, promising him everything that he ever wanted that made him stop.

She smiled up at him, sad and sweet, while her hands lifted to cradle his face.  She should be slapping at him, at the very least shoving him off of her, but there was nothing but understanding in her gaze and a tired acceptance.  “It’s okay, Gabe.  It’s okay.”

He wanted to tell her he loved her, that he wasn’t sure if he could live without her, that he needed her more than he needed food and water.  But there was ten years between them, and from the first moment he started wanting her he knew it was wrong.  He’d have to fight his daddy and her Poppop and his mother might just disown him.

He’d happily face all that if he didn’t feel he was stealing the best years of her life from her.  If he got his hands on her, he’d never let her go.  He’d tie her to him using any means at his disposal.  He was primitive enough to want her pregnant and glowing at his side, to take care of all her needs.  He loved hard and he had always loved her to the point of obsession. 

She pushed at his chest, and he fell over to his back.  Her hair tickled his belly and thighs.  Her soft hands circled him and set up a slow pumping that had him moving his hips to her pace.  The entire time she kept her eyes locked on his face.  Her gaze swallowed him whole and he wanted nothing more than to be deep inside her, to let her nourish and sustain him.  And pleasure him.  No way could he forget about that.

Her hands kept up that slow, steady rhythm, never picking up the pace, never hurrying as if she’d been waiting her entire left to touch him.  He gave himself over to her as the tension left his body and he relaxed into the sweetness of her hands.  He came with his eyes still on hers feeling unspeakably vulnerable as she watched every grimace and shudder, as she watched the color bloom on his face.

When he was done, she laid down beside him in the grass, flesh to flesh.  She collapsed against him like she was a deflated balloon, her body warm and supple and sweat misted against his.  Her breathing slowed down and evened out into a sigh.  They rested together.  He didn’t want to break the silence, didn’t want to move, just stay with her like this with the sun on their faces and the grass at their backs.He stayed that way a long time, unwilling to pull way from her and see the damage he’d done.

He slowly sat up and looked down at her.  There were bruises forming at her breasts and hips, and still she watched him with those huge eyes. He had loved her since she was a child and he had used her this way.  He had almost had her in the dirt, with no thought to her comfort. 

He kissed her, his mouth tender against her swollen lips. He tasted her blood and wondered if he caused that as well. “Forgive me.  Forgive me, Prin.”

He walked away, towards the stream, picking up his shirt as he went, and dipping it into the cool water.  He rung it out, went back to her, and washed her.  Then he helped her dress, hooking her bra, fastening her shirt, pulling her skirt down until it rested just below her knees.  Her ripped panties were useless and he shoved them into the back pocket of his jeans. 

“Let me take you on home, now.  My car’s parked a little ways up the road.”

She took his hand in hers as they walked, another gesture from her childhood.  He was racked with guilt.

“Gabe, there’s nothing to be sorry for.  I wanted you to.  Truth be told, I wanted more than that.  I’ve always wanted you.  One of these days you’re going to get tired of telling me no.  I’m beginning to see little cracks in your armor.”

God help him, but she was right.  It was easier when she was three hours away, when he didn’t have to see her every day, when he didn’t have to hear her laughter, or watch her grin light up her face. He thought about all the ways he could touch her.  He knew he would hurt her, at some point he wouldn’t be able to stop himself.  She wasn’t for him.

“Prin, that was just…  Look, you need to be with guys your own age.”

She snorted. “Gabe, you make it sound like you’re on the way to the retirement home any day now.  Ten years is not that big an age difference.”

“It is when I helped raise you.”

“You didn’t help raise me.  You were just around when I was growing up.  There is a distinct difference.I can’t remember you ever taking a switch to my bottom.  Now that I think about it some, I’m sure I wouldn’t mind in the least if you were so inclined now.”

“Don’t tempt me. You don’t need someone like me pushing up on you…”

She pulled her hand away from him, and put her hands on her hip.  “Gabe, I swear, I’m about to lose all patience with you.  I mean it.  Next time you’re overtop me, you’d better be prepared to finish what you started or I will.  I want you.  Don’t you want me, Gabe?”

Hell yes.  Hell yes, he wanted her.  And she goddamn well knew it.  Wanting her was never the issue between them. “You are a beautiful woman, and I love you.  You know I love you, don’t you?”

“Yes.”  She trusted him.  She had always trusted him and he would never lie to her.

“But baby, you are not for me.  Hear me?  You are not for me.”

She backed away from him, shaking her head.  “You drive me crazy, Gabe.  Really.  All this honor and angst.  Enough all ready.  I don’t need a ride home.  I’m fine.” 

She was embarrassed and pissed off. He knew he was courting bodily harm, but he said, “Let me take you on home, Prin.”

“I can walk.  I don’t need anything from you.” She turned and walked slow through the woods back to the road.  She had too much pride to run from him.

 

 

 

 

 


 

 

Jim Johnson was so tall his head touched the ceiling like a mere house couldn’t contain him.  He liked to joke that he was the entire offensive line when he played football in college.  Prin could believe it.  Jim Johnson was a man who could not be moved.

And didn’t that make growing up with him one useless battle.  It wasn’t even a battle.  It was all out war.  She was so good and vanquished the only way she could get out from beneath his thumb was hightailing off to college and then to Charlotte.

She knew he loved her.  He probably loved her too much for her own good, but it was the kind of love that took no prisoners and tolerated no dissent. He was first and foremost a marine; surrender was a four letter word to him.

He stood on the porch of the house with his legs braced and hands on his hip looking like a taller version of the green giant.  Even though he was in his late sixties, his back was still ramrod straight.  He narrowed his eyes as she approached, studying every little thing about her.  She was his greatest worry and, sometimes she felt, his greatest disappointment.He stumped down the steps.  He never walked.  His size made sure everyone within a good mile knew he was coming.  The sun threw sparks off his steel gray hair.

He stopped when he was a few feet away from her and opened his arms.  She ran to him and he enfolded her tight.  She wallowed in Old Spice, pipe smoke, and clean sweat.  His hands roamed over her head, his touch light and hesitant.  She knew she’d scared him.  She’d scared the shit out of herself. 

He set her a little bit away so he could see her face.  “There’s Prin mine.”  His brown eyes were laser sharp, hard as stone, but beneath it all was real worry and so much love she felt it like a weight around her neck.  When she was growing up she drowned underneath the weight of all that love, like he had a death grip on her ankle and pulled her under.  She clawed and kicked and bit to get away from him.

Now all that love was a blessing.  She was safe.  She could rest.  She could try to heal.  Relief hit her so hard she swayed on her feet and tried to suck back sobs.  “Poppop, I’m so glad to see you.  I’m so glad to be home.”

He wiped at her tears with his big hands.  His hands were soft against her cheeks, and the calluses on his palms lightly scratched her skin.  When she was a little girl and he used to braid her hair and give her baths, she was always amazed that a man so huge was so tender.  “It’s okay, Prin mine.  None of that now.  You’re home and there’s nothing to cry about anymore.” 

He led her to the steps and settled them so she was sitting close with her head resting against his shoulder and his arm around her waist.  “You ready to talk about it yet?”

She was surprised he was giving her an option.  Demands were more his style.  Maybe age was mellowing him out finally.  Or maybe she was such a hot mess right now he was terrified she’d crumble to pieces if he pushed too hard.  “Not yet.  I just want to settle some.  Be quiet and rest my soul.”

He laughed at that.  It was one of his favorite sayings for her because she drove him crazy with her constant activity and chatter when she was growing up.  He’d ask God in complete bewilderment, “Why, Lord, can’t this child rest her soul?”  God apparently never answered because Poppop never stopped asking.

It would be so easy to stay like this with him forever, let him wrap her up in little girl fantasies and kiss all her cuts and bruises.  He’d let her pretend as long as she wanted. And that’s why she couldn’t do it.  It would be nothing more than pretend and she’d just get better and better at faking like nothing was really wrong with her.  “I was going to stay through the summer while I renovated Mama and Daddy’s old house.” 

“You sure you want to do that?  I was thinking you might want to sale and start over.  They’ve just built some pretty little condos right outside of town.  Just enough space for you, beautiful grounds, and it even has a pool.”

A pool did sound nice, but she had the lake.  It had a stone bottom and shade and the water was clear enough so she could kind of see her toes.  And the ocean was a nice drive away.  White sand beaches and teal blue water made a pool a little redundant.  Condos were too crowded, people living on top of each other.  She learned in Charlotte she needed tons of elbow room or she suffocated.  She didn’t want to look out her window and see anyone unless they were coming to visit.

Mama and Daddy’s house had enough land so that there were no neighbors in shouting distance.  Enough land to plant a vegetable garden and plant some flowers and get the silly assed dog she’d been dreaming of.  No pure breeds because she wasn’t the type and no lap dogs because, really, what was the point?  She wanted a huge pawed mutt long in loyalty and sense and short in dignity.

She shook her head against Poppop’s shoulder.  “I don’t want the condo.  I want my own place.  I want to make some more good memories in that house.  We made lots of them before Mama and Daddy died.”

“I’ve kept it up for the most part.  Some cosmetic work will probably need to be done and we can redo the hardwood floors.  Take a look at the kitchen and maybe modernize it a little.”

“I have a little bit in savings, but not enough for all that, Poppop.”

“Most of the work we can do ourselves.  I’ll help you.  Have to admit, the idea of you living out there makes me nervous.  I’d prefer you stay with me or go on ahead and move into the condo.  Lots of young folks live in that condo, Prin.”  He pulled her hair and teased. “You can start looking for a husband and make me some grandbabies before I get so senile I can’t remember their names.”

“You’re not going to get senile.  I’m not sure you even age.  You still look the same way you did when I was a little.”

Poppop raised his hand to his head.  “You don’t see all this gray hair, girl?”

She laughed.  “A little Just For Men will knock that right out.  Then you can start dating and work on getting me a grandma.  I always wanted a grandma.”

Poppop grimaced.  “What do I need a wife for, Prin mine?”

“What do I need a husband for?”

Poppop’s arm squeezed her waist hard, making her squeal.  “Miss independent, huh?  I was happily married to your grandmother for twenty years before she passed. If I found somebody I loved as much as I loved her, I’d marry in a heartbeat.  I want you to have what we had.  I want you to have a man that’s going to love you unconditionally, in sickness and in health.  I want you to have your own children.”

Poppop had always been a closet romantic.  He listened to Blues late at night.  His favorites were the Blind Boys of Alabama and Betsy Smith.  He was also partial to Frank Sinatra and Lena Horne.  She remembered dancing with him as they made dinner when she was little, her feet stacked on top of his.  His favorite book was Anna Karinna.  She once told him that it was a romance novel and he was mortally offended.  He didn’t forgive her for almost an entire week. She kissed his cheek.  “You find him for me, and I’ll marry him without argument.”

 

 

Fireflies lit up the dusk.  Prin used to catch them and keep them in jars poked with holes at the top and filled with grass when she was little until Poppop told her it was wrong to cage something so pretty and free.  One landed on her arm and she watched as it made its slow way up to her elbow before jumping off.  Annie Rose sat next to her in Poppop’s back yard, her legs spread out, and her hands on her belly.  Her red hair was piled high on her head in deference to the heat and damps strands stuck to her cheeks and neck.  The dusk stillness was alive with the hum of grasshoppers and the call of owls. 

“You know, I never heard this in Charlotte.  Only thing you can hear at night is traffic and the neighbors.  Sometimes a police or fire siren.”

“That doesn’t sound all that bad.  I miss the noise of New York. Sometimes the quiet here drives me straight crazy.  The thing about nights here is they’re for lovers.  The heat, the smell of magnolia and roses, the owls… It’s all like some mating call.  And, just my luck, I have no mate.”

“Me neither.”

“Well, I hate to be the one to tell you, but you haven’t exactly improved your prospects by moving back home.”

“Surely, there is someone somewhere in Kingstree that I can work my womanly wiles on.”

“Gabe still out the picture?”

“Oh, we moaned and groped a little this afternoon.”

“Really?  And you’re just telling me?”

“Yes, well, it’s not something that I want to broadcast to Poppop.  As always, the moaning and groping was fantastic.  However, Gabe is nothing if not consistent, and he keeps on telling me no.”

Annie Rose snorted.  “How he can resist your womanly wiles is beyond me.”

“That’s exactly how I feel.”

Annie Rose smacked at a mosquito that landed on her thigh.  The citronella candles were burning and they were slathered in insect repellant, but mosquitoes were the price paid for living in the South.  “This has been going on for years without resolution.  You’re the star of your very own soap opera.”

“Don’t I know it.  I’m hoping my evil twin sister doesn’t show up, kill me, and take my place.”

“As interesting as that may be, my point was surely you can wear this man down.”

“Maybe.  Probably.  But I want him to want me as much as I want him.  You know what My Butter says?  She says I should never love a man more than he loves me.”

“I’m sure she didn’t realize that the man you love is her son.”

“Huh. How awkward would that be?  Taking her advice about how to deal with her baby boy?”

“Don’t take her advice.  Don’t tell her.  Continue to have these clandestine moan and groan sessions with Gabe.  Just don’t forget to tell me all about it.”

“There aren’t any other prospects?  What about Wayne?”

“That man got married over three years ago.  He has two kids, a dog, and tons of bunny rabbits procreating like mad in his backyard.”

“How about Richard?  I used to kind of have a crush on him in high school.”

“He’s living with his partner, a truly beautiful man, down in Savannah.  He’s brought him home a couple of times but I guessed you missed him.  Shame.”

“What about…”

Annie Rose glared at her.  “I’m not going to play this game with you all night, Prin.  Every single man we went to high school with has married, moved far, far away, or is gay.”

Prin glared right back.  “No need to be bitchy.”

Annie Rose sighed, “You’re right.  I know you’re right.  It’s just thinking about my lack of dating prospects always puts me in a foul mood.”

“You should try online dating.”

“Believe me, I’ve thought about it.  Thought about it long and hard.  I’m not quite there.  I keep hoping the man of my dreams is going to get a flat tire and be forced to stop in Kingstree so I can wow him with my charms.  And I’m not quite ready.” 

She and Annie Rose ran away from Kingstree around the same time.  Annie Rose was always more adventurous, so she hightailed it to New York where she attended the best culinary school in the nation, and afterwards, worked in the kitchens of five star restaurants until Jason, her shitty ex, broke her heart and arm. Soon as Prin got word from the hospital and police, she called Annie Rose and told her to pack.  Enough was enough.  And that sonofabitch better hope she didn’t see a hair on his head because she was bringing Poppop’s gun.  To hell with homeland security.

Prin flew up to New York and dragged Annie Rose home.  Annie Rose was still nervous around men even though she believed in romance and happily ever after more than anyone else Prin knew. But being in an abusive relationship for years did that to a woman.  Prin pushed Annie Rose’s witch red hair away from her face. “You do have ample charms.”

“I know it well.  And it’s all going to waste.  I have begun the process of rotting at the vine. I’m over ripe.”

Prin laughed.  “I didn’t know that could happen in your twenties.”

“Mid twenties.”

“You hag.”

Poppop hollered from the kitchen, “You ladies need a beer or some wine?”

Annie Rose hollered right back, “Yes, please, Poppop.  And your ribs smell divine.  I swear, my mouth is watering.”

Poppop was famous throughout North Carolina for his ribs, could open a rib shack if he wanted to, but he liked his job down Kingstree Beer Company, and liked working with Mr. Aiden, Gabe’s father.  For as long as Prin could remember, Poppop was a man that loved food and drink and loved to work with his hands.  He tended his yard, grew his flowers and vegetables, and did all the upkeep on his house and anyone else’s house, too.

Especially if they were pretty widow ladies that didn’t mind entertaining and cooking for a hungry man.  At Kingstree Beer Company he helped create craft beers and oversaw the production lines.  He also worked on the intricate design labels that were the trademark of all Kingstree beers. 

Poppop kicked open the screen door.  Annie Rose jumped up to help, and he waved her back down.  “Annie Rose, you stay right where you are.  I’m not so old I need help bringing two pretty girls a drink.”  He handed them the beers, Kingstree Summer Wheat, and went to check the grill.

The bottle was icy cold in Prin’s hand.  She rubbed it against her hot face before bringing it to her lips.  The beer was light with a hint of cherry and went down nice and easy. The only beers she drank were Kingstree, anything else would have been flat out disloyal.  Kingstree beers were also the best.

In Charlotte she got used to drinking beer from a tumbler, especially when she went bar hopping with her friends. To do anything else was considered redneck backwards.  But there was nothing in the world like chugging beer straight from the bottle.  There wasn’t any need to fancy it up.  Sometimes simple was best.

Soon as Poppop lifted the grill, smoke snaked out, chasing some of the mosquitoes away.  It had been so long that she had down home cooked ribs she’d almost forgot what they tasted liked.  The spicy smell of the smoke reminded her right quick.

Poppop closed the grill and sat down, waiting for the ribs to heat through.  The secret to good ribs, according to Poppop, was to slow cook them in the oven until the skin was falling from the bone, and then put them out on the grill.  Annie Rose patted her belly, “I’m so hungry I could eat a horse.”

Poppop frowned at her.  “I thought I broke you both from using clichés while you all where in high school.  It’s the mark of a lazy mind.”

Annie Rose laughed.  “Wait a second now, let me think.  I’m so hungry I could wring a pig’s neck, suck the meat, and chew the gristle.”

Prin’s face scrunched up.  “I think you’ve done turned me off eating meat altogether, Annie Rose.”

Poppop nodded his head.  “That’s much better.  And good thing for you since the ribs are pork.” 

Poppop reached his hand across the table for Prin’s hand. “It’s good to have you home, Prin mine.”

She should have come home a long time ago, before it went all to shit in Charlotte.  She should have come home the first night she didn’t hear crickets.  She should have come home the first time a bartender poured her beer into a glass. She squeezed his hand, and leaned down to kiss the back of his palms.

She took another pull from the beer, and they sat in companionable silence, the sounds of the night echoing from the woods surrounding the backyard.  She heard the car before she saw the headlights. “Poppop, you expecting company?”

“I didn’t tell you?  Aiden and Blanche coming out, bringing Gabe and the boys.  They’re dying to see you.  Plus, Gabe can eat all these ribs by himself.”

She panicked, knocked over her beer, and fumbled with the napkins as she tried to wipe it up.

Poppop stared at her. “What’s wrong, Prin?”

Annie Rose snickered and started humming the theme music to As the World Turns. 

“Nothing, Poppop.  Nothing.”

“You sure, honey?”

“Poppop, I’m fine. Really.” 

She listened as the cars came to a stop, and stood up when she heard the jumble of voices coming around to the back of the house.